In Amy We Trust

The first time I saw this, I fell in love. Instantly I knew she was going to be a huge deal. Her moves, her style, that voice—so impressive.

There's a lot more to come if only she would get better.

Let us all pray for this girl because a talent like hers should not disappear.

Love?

Although we see a panel of women here, this is a universal message. Most of us have these intense perceptions of love. And so, as we seek, we fail. Check out the video below and learn from it. It's an honest, straightforward, and obvious message.

You, Me, and Everyone Else We Know

Stop,
resist.

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The Letter

"If you all didn't think I was crazy, I'm sure you will now. How do I explain the things I've said and done? How do I explain the person I've become? I know I've disappointed everyone and I'm sorry for that. I wish I was a more articulate person. I believe life is magical. It is so precious. And there are so many kinds of life in this life. So many things to love. The love of a husband or a wife, a boyfriend or girlfriend. The love for children. The love for yourself. And even material things. This is my love. It is mine. It fills me and it defines me. And it compels me on."

Molly Shannon as Peggy in Year of the Dog

Possession

it is true you rocked my life
and that i can't stop thinking about you no matter how hard i try
even now, many years later, I still remember every inch of your face
every curve and bump and bone
that brown flesh --
i remember it precisely and that burns me
it isn't fun having you haunt me everyday
i still dream about you
and to me that’s so sick
i still sit and wonder what it is you're doing and who you're doing it with
still wonder if i am ever thought of
or missed or desired
still wonder if someone else gets to hold your hand at the theater or kiss your back as you lie asleep
my spot was taken you see
and i am still not over that

i once learned if you divide the time you were coupled with someone by two,
you’ll come up with the amount of time it’ll take to get over that person
that’s a total lie though
because it seems the amount of time we spent together has been multiplied by a hundred
you’re still here
in this head
many years later

i can go out
have a drink or six
meet new people
have nights of meaningless passion
be worshiped
get high
write write write
try every which way i can to delete your name from my back
but it won’t go away
no amount of scrubbing
or pulling
or peeling can get you away from my life

and i’m not sure what to do now

it is already passed the time for me to move on
but what you’ve done to me
my dear friend and ex lover
won’t let me be

See Through

I dreamt about Ray Charles last night
and he could see just fine

Things aren't what they seem
I have realized
and I wonder what makes us blind

Hope Floats

look 'round
enjoy your view and smile like a kid
stay now
make a wish and don't stop until it's big

Paz

"El sentimiento de soledad, por otra parte, no es una ilusión —

como a veces lo es el de inferioridad —

sino la expresión de un hecho real:
somos, de verdad, distintos.
Y, de verdad, estamos solos."

Octavio Paz

My Radio: What I'm Listening To

"Music makes the people come together."

Walcott - Vampire Weekend
My Man is a Mean Man - Stefanie Heinzmann
Time Flies - Lykke Li
Baila Mi Corazón - Belanova
Starz in Their Eyes - Just Jack
Angel - Lisa Lavie
Pick it Up - Fergie
Giving Up - Ingrid Michaelson
I Decided - Solange
Daydreamer - Adele
Love Story - Mariah Carey
How I Could Just Kill a Man - Charlotte Sometimes
Better in Time - Leona Lewis
He Loves Me (Lyzel in E Flat) - Jill Scott

The Road

Someone sat and wrote this
or maybe he did it while standing up
either way
think about it...

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it may be harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin."

Home

"This place is like an abstract—
you can describe it any way you want
and you can't be wrong."

Ernesto Quiñonez

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My Theme Song

I don't know how she did it
I don't know how she got it right
I can't figure out how she packed a pen and paper
and sat in my mind

Just listen...



Everybody But Me
I stand in the corner
Thinking over 1,2 what am I to do
Should I go home still sober
Or should I buy me another glass of wine
And forget about time?

But my jeans are too tight
Don't really feel like dancing
No this light is too bright
Don't really feel like shining
No this room is too small
Rather stand against the wall
And hope that no one sees me

When everybody's dancing
I don't want to
When everybody's joking
I don't want to
When everybody's laughing
I don't want to
Everybody but me

When everybody's drinking
I don't want to
When everybody's smoking
I don't need more
When everybody's fooling
I don't want to
Everybody but me

I get the creeps from all the people in here
I cannot breathe
It's too crowded in here
Don't look at me
I don't wanna be seen
Touched, heard, bothered
By the fellas
Who got that look in their eye
They wanna take me home
Without knowing my name
They wanna put it on
But do they not know
That I'm not like the others

Goodbye, Love

On September 7, 2008, RENT will say goodbye to Broadway.

Currently the seventh longest running Broadway show to date, the Tony and Pulitzer Prize winning musical masterpiece has been a great inspiration for many. It's so sad to see this go. I've seen it on Broadway five times and have plans to go and see it one last time before its final curtain. I'm excited but it's all so bittersweet.

To the master and creator, Mr. Jonathan Larson -- thank you for envisioning the dream and setting out to achieve it. You rocked us all.