This morning
I looked up at the sky
and saw the stars
but for the first time in a long time, I made no wish
This is it
no more pleas
or silly requests
what will be will be
from now on
I'll move one day at a time
dismiss expectations
rebuke all urges to ask for this or that
I won't wish upon any star
because wishes don't really make it
In the end, we get whatever we get by chance
for that, I will cling to nothing
give up on any hope
for now, I'll just sit and live
what comes, comes
silently I will accept
because this is the only true way to limit disappointment
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I don't particularly favor this blog. Well written and it does move me a bit. However, it saddens me that you've given up on the magic this universe has. You're one of those magical forces. The proof is in your blogs.
When I was a little girl, I would sit on chair (or where ever) and look to the sky--i wondered where my help came from, where the answers to my questions came from and how my desires where going to fufilled. I saw the movie "Curly Sue" and i wanted curly hair--so i wished upon the stars--everynight til i got it (now at 24..lol.) but that was not because i wished on a star that was because of the climate..lol. anyway when I got older my desires where more than just curly hair. I wanted answers, as to why things that happened did. For years all I would do is cry. I cried questions, I wrote and no one read, I spoke and no one listened. I then gave up..my poor little heart gave up to the point that I stopped smiling so much and so I began the process of isolation which was quickly followed by depression. The people in my life would speak but my ears were so shut that as they spoke I felt as if i were listening into seashells (you know that ocean kind of noice)and so, everyone I know lost total credibility.
I decided to that I had to make life happen so i did, i went and found me a man, i did what typical people with no higher expactation would do...i settled, but I was not completely happy--this guy was great but i had deeper desires that i wanted to do. I knew, I just knew that there had to be more to life then what I had, and I was going to get there. All I do know is that I met God, during my search of what I wanted to do and now have new hope and my hearts desire was rekindled and I have even gained understading of where my desires have come from. I now where my help comes from--an no i have not yet fufilled my hearts desire--but i know that i will, my hope has been restored and I am just going through the refigners fire to be effective in the place in life where i want to be.
I hope that makes sense. with all that said--don't loose hope. don't give up.
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