Before & After

I never liked the man I was when you were around
I wasn't always happy; I used to get so angry
I was never really me and I'm sorry about all that

It's not enough to apologize for this,
to spit this out here and confess it to whoever is reading
because no matter how much I tried
I didn't do my best
and I hurt the both us because of it

But you see, you never made it easy
I always managed to let you get to me,
to let your ridiculous philosophies affect me
like a gnat flying in my face
or an angry truck driver and his road rage
you pestered
and bickered
and let me know time and time again
my love was never-ever enough

I used to think I needed you
that's the only reason why I put up with you
everyone else would tell me: "he means well"
Because you're a good guy on paper
"give him a chance," they'd go
but they didn't know:
there's more to you than meets the eye
and you're alone—
friendless and unloved—for a very obvious reason
I will never-ever forget that.