Neda

In a place where screaming out your beliefs will get you killed, Neda took a bullet to the heart. The heart, damn it -- that magic piece of our complex bodies where all things come alive!

You have to read the attached article and see the video.

This is the world we live in! And WE take our liberties for granted sometimes. I can go out and raise a sign blasting Obama. I can go dancing at a parade full of fruits and such. I can oppose oppose oppose freely and openly. But some can’t.

F*ck! This makes me angry. God, have mercy. The heavens must be shaking now.

Neda! Her soft face! Her young life! Those eyes with a hundred stories to tell – oh, but the million reasons why she couldn’t!

This video is extremely graphic. I do not recommend viewing it if you’re sensitive in any way. I do recommend reading the article though. So copy and paste the link below.

http://gawker.com/5299414/neda-the-face-of-a-revolution

Home

I woke up this morning
and finally realized
I no longer miss him.

Now, I may rest.

confusion boy (shame shame shame)

i could be it
if you just let me in
quiet, closet man
"i don't want to get attached,"
you say
and what a shame shame shame shame
but whatever
i'll be ok
(eventually)

still,
you write
requesting hugs
and sex sex sex
"i miss you," you say
and i cry.

Pride.

At the end of the month, NYC's annual Pride parade will take place. We get a day, but fuck it -- I'm making it a month!

Happy Pride!

At First Sight

Oh!

let it be this way

he'll see me,
and I'll see him

and we'll both know.

esperalo...

If you're in N.Y.

www.newyorkequality.com

fifty fifty

i can give you the ocean
if you want it
i'll figure out some way to get it to you
if you ask for it
and you need it
it's yours

i just hope
when i ask for rocks
you'll bring me boulders galore

Blind Boy

What is love? Can somebody show me? I wear glasses you know.

Locked Heart

I will pretend...
--be a mute and a zombie
to keep from telling you
the stupid things that always come out
I’ll wear a stiff face
like you
lock my head if I have to
keep the signals down
because you’ve lost me
and I’ll melt the key
you watch and see.

My Radio: What I'm Listening To

"In music I trust."

Ego - Beyonce
I'm a Lady - Santigold
If You Want me - Marketa Irglova
Waking Up in Vegas - Katy Perry
Ugly - Sugarbabes
Tell Him - Colbie Caillat
Fly - J. Holiday
Water and a Flame - Daniel Merriweather & Adele
What is Love - Jennifer Lopez

Crash: 21 yrs later.

Dear Mommy,

If I had known.

If I had known!

There are a million things I would have done differently.

There would have been more kisses
and a million hugs
I would have painted more pictures for you at school
I would have behaved
and given you a bunch of reasons to smile.

I don’t remember the day
and I curse my stolen memory
because it would do me good
to see you holding my hand
when we were hit.

I know it.

Word Warp, IV

Care for me, care for me You said you care for me There for me, there for me Said you'd be there for me Cry for me, cry for me You said you'd die for me Give to me,give to me Why won't you live for me? Lauryn is still so relevent. You too.

Subway Story

Have you ever seen a stranger on a subway platform
and wondered, as you stared, what it would be like
to hold him,
to nestle your face on his neck--
that little lover's nook--
as he reads a novel in bed

This has happened to me
and I wonder what it is
where does it come from
and does it say anything about me

Why do I desire embraces from perfect strangers?

Oh,
and as I stare
if they look back
I always make up perfect scenarios
on how life would be if we were together

for example:
in five minutes
we're on a beach--
vacation
drinking cocktails and
holding hands

later, there are even wedding bells!

is this needy
or romantic?

I. C.