Love is tough. Hearts are broken everyday. Here's a short list of things to take note if you're weak when it comes to handling the pain. You may not agree with me. I don't care. This is what works for me. These are the mistakes I've made and have learned from. Before each sentence, say out loud: "I do not recommend..." If you have something to add, leave a comment!
listening to sade after a breakup.
memorizing a boys number -- because when it's no longer relevant, the number will echo endlessly inside your head -- even when you aren't purposely reciting it.
sharing rituals or habits, like watching a t.v. show together or making sure you've got biscuits and ginger ale in the fridge to share while a movie plays -- because when you see the show and he isn't around, or when you see said items at the supermarket, your eyes will involuntarily water. to stop it, you'll have to hate the things you once shared. that's not good because you'll end up missing out on good shows and good food.
fighting for a hug. if he no longer wants to give you one, let him be.
meaningless sex to fill the void. the only hole that will be filled this way will cause you more pain than you started out with. think about it.
saying his name.
looking at old photos or emails.
blaming yourself.
replaying scenes to see if there was something else you could have done. you did what you did because that's all you knew. you live, you learn, you grow.
memorizing those times he'd laugh hysterically.
begging for forgiveness. if you have to ask for it more than once, then you aren't enough.
staring into space.
wondering if he wants you back. if he isn't calling, he doesn't want you back.
staying home from work and lying in bed the whole day. your mind will repeat itself and you'll go nuts for sure. take a day to recuperate if need be. do not take three.
waiting at his train station to see if by chance you'll catch him.
regretting.
closing the door completely.
