bionic

Word Warp, V

i'm way too glum for you
i walk in circles
and you dance
i hide, but you're free!
you laugh and smile
even when you're thinking
i sob,
all dazed
even when i'm sleeping.
we're so far apart

r.i.p.

to the ones who fall
because of stupid fools,
I'll be your voice

they got you
but they haven't gotten me yet.

My Current Guilty Pleasure

So I know I recommend a lot of tunes and I’m not certain how many of you have the time to check each one out but I want you to try and listen to this here.

If you’re like me, those Disney channel starlets annoy the hell out of you too. Miley Cyrus, Demi Lavato, and let’s not forget the Jonas Bros. as well. They’re all so ridiculous.

But…

Take a look at this. It’s not enough to sit and listen. You’ve got to watch the video too. This girl is so pretty and the song is kind of amazing.

The name of the song is “Naturally” and the singer is Selena Gomez, a Mexican-Italian American born actress from Disney Channel's “Wizards of Waverly Place.” I’ve never seen the show but I’ve heard a lot about it. She's too Disney for my own good but, I'm ashamed to say, I can't get enough of this song.

Everytime I play the song on my iPhone while on my way to work, I click the replay button discretely for fear that people will see the album cover on the screen. See it here and you'll see why I'm embarrassed about it.

Anyway, I love this new song! I want to be her. There. I said it. And I don't take it back. Naturally.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_YR4dKArgo

like a little boy, i love

i'm really 15

no one knows

and I know no one will believe me

but

i pretend

i walk the walk

and look the part

but it's a farce

i hide in this manly form

peeking through the eyes

i hang about

and let him move --

this gargantuan host of lies

i'm not a man

it is true

'cause inside

yes,

here I am

just 15

dancing with butterflies in my tummy all the time

Are You Here?

i want to try and be
a bit more hard-hearted
keep my shoulders to myself
and pretend i'm all out of Kleenex

let 'em fight the wars alone
because i'm running on empty
and i'm so tired too
there's only so much i can do

Florence + the Machine

Maybe the best thing you've heard in a long time. Listen, but please make sure to raise the volume up, up, up.

Fuck You, Robin Quivers

The other day, as I read this article and listened to a recording of Howard Stern from his show on Sirius XM with co-host Robin Quivers, I sat red-faced, shocked, and annoyed. I was bothered, not by what Howard had to say really. I mean, the man is well known for his very controversial public remarks. What bothered me the most was listening to his co-host, Robin Quivers.

Robin Quivers, if you do not know, is African American. She's probably the highest paid female radio personality in the country, thanks to her massa, uh, boss Howard. The day after the Oscars, this black professional woman had the audacity to laugh and speak against actress Gabourey Sidibe's weight.

"Yeah, look in that room. Who else do you look like?" she giggled out to Gabourey.

If Robin had taken the time out to look around that room too, would she have found any familiar faces? In a room full of mostly white men and women, who did she resemble?

Gabourey is overweight. We all know that. That is a fact for sure. But that's her business and if anyone feels she needs help, send her a letter, speak to her in private, or pray for her. That's just the bottom line. Robin isn't her mother. In fact, they are not related to each other at all. I'm sure Robin isn't genuinely concerned for Gaby's wellbeing. Her comments were full of pure judgment and nothing more. They were just simple thoughts said aloud to tickle the funny bone. But I am not laughing.

It is my true opinion that all people of color should stick up for one another. Why is there always someone so full of himself he has to go on and attack the innocent? What did Gaby do? Why isn't Robin by her side?

Anyway, listen to the clip below. It's never OK to hit a woman, but quite frankly Robin deserves a slap.

My Radio: What I'm Listening To

"Let the right ones in."

Crazy Amazing - V.V. Brown
Be That Easy - Sade
Can't Stand It - Never Say Never
Cat & Mouse - Nikki & Rich
Terrified - Katharine McPhee & Jason Reeves
Neon Moon - Brooks & Dunn

o, hello, new lover.

i want to play the coy mistress... ease into him slowly... you know, surprise him here and there... and then, when i have him, i just want to hold him for a good hour and tell him i can be his boy.

Judge This Rather

"Let us not therefore judge one another any more:
but judge this rather,
that no man put a stumbling-block or an occasion to fall in his brother's way."
Romans 14:13

It burns the hell out of me when one person is attacked or laughed at simply because they're different. It isn't fair to be lashed out at for being gay, disabled, having some type of mental delay, or for being overweight, among other things. Sometimes, these things are well beyond our control. There are ways to fight it, to try and edge out the hardships, but it's really tough and you've got to cut people some slack. We're all different. No one is perfect. There is no normal. There's just us.

So what if I decide to wear an orange jumpsuit, a pink bow on my hair, and rainbow shoes. Does it bother you? Will it hurt you? Maybe not.

So what if I weigh more than 300 pounds and I still eat hamburgers at McDonalds. Will that affect you? Will it make you die? Probably not.

And what if I sit on the subway, my head against my boyfriend's shoulder as we switch through song after song on his iPod. Will that damage your life? Will it give you a disease? I'm certain it will not.

If I do it, these things have nothing to do with you. It's what I've got to offer inside that matters.

That's just what I think.

So, I say this:

To anyone who's ever felt the need to wrongfully poke fun at someone: fuck you.

Motives & Thoughts, IV

To the lonelyhearts and lovefools—my dear counterparts:

"When you long with all your heart for someone to love you, a madness grows there that shakes all sense from the trees and the water and the earth. And nothing lives for you, except the long deep bitter want. And this is what everyone feels from birth to death."

Denton Welch