Lost

I've stopped living life
I've just been sitting around and waiting
for someone to come grab me
however, no one ever reaches out,
but there I go again
insisting that patience is a virtue and if I hang tight
someone will take care of me
I've got all these feelings bottled up inside
I lie in bed at night just thinking and praying and hoping
this is not how it's supposed to go, though
I'm not supposed to put a pause on my life while everyone is on the go
but it's not enough to realize this
I've got to do something
I just don't know where to begin
how to start
when to let go